Let me put this up to update you unsure if headline is wow..im an idiot or end if line coming or date getting out or me

 But i know its a few topics

I Think figured out how make pics small enough they show on front page

But i have ti stop.taking screenshot of Pics i want to shate  see below. Thats all it is .but it tajes to long to Do. To shate 

I akways have reasons. Its. Prob dumb. Easy to you..but. To save Time i did hings the hard way at first ..thatz part if my. Im an idiot..good news tho 

See first two i cropped. But What it looked Like

Ummmm & see .you think i edit..lol.LOL.i do like The extreme editing.. Colors. Styles..but can clearly see it.

Which. Yes i realuzed should make each separate lije fitness.foid.trave!.proof  side notesc

But tired of not postibg till i fuxed so here goes & yes. U thinK have a better idea. Niw that. Ive started utube & thinking aboyt thibgs ?but skim. What do You Think

Is next ?? 















Wow.  Your.  Going to be proud of me..
As soon as I finish  the. Bushes & Flowers. In fhe backyard.  So. I don't. Hear it

Im.telling you. 8. 9 hrs a day. I have spent just. Working. .  Have. Calluses. Bug bites. Poison ivy....but I'm told.  Also. Looking bettee.  Muscles. Etx.  But
Tech wise. Soooo I can.reach out...say.  hey.   Show  you. Things etc. & decide. what to do. 

. You  would be so proud of me.    

I finally. Am getting. There.  Google. Accts. Blogs.  Photo  accta.  Playlists. You tube. Links..social sites  .you. tube channel...vids. mpegs... .webcam ..phones. to. Tablets. To. Pc. & tv.   To. A Bluetooth headset. And. .now. connected.condensed &  Streamlined. Whooooo..whooooaaa 
Sooo

I wrote about this. More at end of the post
For a laugh..... and since I'd rather  get this. Up. THen. SIt and correct. Every word...

So you at least know. What going on.im getting. Somewhere..estimated  date can get out
CAUSE PHONE CAME.. CREDIT CARD CAME.   BEEN WORKING OUT.  FINALLY. THINK I CAN. NOT YAKE W STEPS. BACK
.....IN EVERYTHING ..BUT.  LASTLY.  WHAT TO DO.   NOW THAT.  CONTRACT. RUNNING. DOWN.   RENT.  OR. MOVE.  AND  .WORK. OR .TRAVEL.    to be HONEST. I DONT KNOW...CAUSE I SIMPLY DONT KNOW. IF.   ANYTHING. IS. DO ABLE  OR FIX ABLE. HERE

.HEY.  ( JOKE.  SAW 2. TOWNS.)
WHAT ABOUT ..
SLAB CITY. & JARBRIDGE???

SPEAKING OF.  WORST GHETTOS IN USA
( GUESS WHERE ) 
THE PEOPLE HERE ARE LIKE 

AT END OF CONTRACT. I SWEAR WE ARE INSTEAD OF RENTING THE PLACE TO. YOU 
WERE GIVING YOU 
A TICKET TO WHEREVER 
SOOOO THATS AN OPTION ..

THEY SAID. YOU KNOW. WE KEEP. SAYING. . 
I SAID. YEA BUT IT TOOK. YOU HOW LONG
HOW LONG. TO. REALLY.   .SEEE.  KNOW.  
....ME...
SOOO. THATS.  THE. SAME. AS. ME. WORKING. HERE.   I DONT. KNOW. IF IT IS. FIXABLE. OR. FEASABLE.  I DONT KNOW. THAT THEY  WANT BETTER HERE. LET ALONE

SO I KNOW WHAT TO DO 
OH. BUT THAT IS WHAT I HAVE DONE. 
WHY IVE BEEN  POOR LATELY HERE.  AND MALNOURISHED. SICK. 
THEY SIMPLY. USE TO.   SOMETHING.  DIFFERENT.. 

SEE JUST LIKE I DONT READ. RESPOND. TO BOARD. OR. SPECIFIC  TXTS.  PEOPLE..
EVEN. NEGHBORS HERE. ...I DONT. TALK. DOWN. ABOUT .PEOPLE. I JUST. SAID. 
WELL. THERE NOT. OUTSIDE PEOPLE. THATS ALL....I HAD THE VENTS. CLEANED. THIS WEEK.......I DONT. SAY  I KNOW.  IT TOOK ME. 8 HRS. TO CLEAN. EACH.  EACH.  CAT TREE. OR. 
THAT IN. THE PLOT OF LAND. .THAT IS. 6Ft 
By 2ft.  LITERALLY  took me 5days and 6. 55gallon. Bags. Of garbage. To clean out.  
Instead I said. That. And then. Steared the. Conversation to.  Well this is my plan. And. Wanted to make. Sure that was ok. By you.  .

Well I still get asked.   Like. How old. Is. The person. That. Chats. About me online. I said I dont know.  ..
 I said. I told. You. I really. Dont.     I know. Most. People look at. Or. Talk about.   
I don't.    .it's not a statement  
I view it as. Waste of time
I don't try to change. Anyones. Option  I don't. Argue. I walk. Away. 

No. Really ..a lot. Take that. As I don't.  Care.     Its not. True.  It's just not beneficial .  Esp. If uour. mad.  ..
Maybe it's how I grew up 
Same as I can read people
I do.... Remember.....people are always. Surprised at that...
I don't. Judge..
I don't need to have attention HAVE TO TALK.  SPCIALIZE..
..HAHAHHAHA

SEE. IF YOU. MET ME....
BUT 

EXAMPLE. WAS INVITED  FOR MY B DAY. TO. EVENT.  ICE CREAM. MEET PEOPLE

I SLEPT.  WATCHED  A MOVIE  .
 POINT is. The person I know. Here said 
I don't know  if she will come. I can Barely. Get her out  to go to the. Store ( I dont want to. Cost anyone  more  money.  That's all ) 

Just like  nursing. Said I was a quite. Doormat..
...and now....well...I'm not. That
I THINK. YOU ALL NEED GLASSES. ALWAYS ALWAYS HAVE.  SAID. DONT  YOU GET. BORED ITS JUST ME. 

I know .most. didn't. Believe...but..hadn't.  Done. Most. Of the  things.  Or not done. Correctly.  Before recently..
. Before I landed in this area 
Had never been In an aldis. A Marc's.  
Never knew  apples. Tasted. Different from each other.   Let alone what. Vegan vs. Whatever  was.   I would say I'm a flexitarian.   
Same as. Everything.   What I want.  When.   What have I said. As far as. Wt. # in. = # out.  Period...
( This is the same. To me as.  Female.. male. Or......
Have no idea what the pronouns. Are. I can't  beleive.  We added more  letters. To lgtb..
There has to be better things to do. With our time
my belief. To each his own .)   
You know me
( I sin ..because u have to make this life liveable)
Everyone make. Comprises.  Grass isn't greenier. Anywhere .
( ..NOW ..its. Easier . But not greenier ) 

Btw one short side note 
I know.  But 
Im.not trying  to harp.  Bring up. What's I've brought up before ***
I know. What it is. 
I'm. Just not. Sure how to do it..
Like you. Guys know. What ive said.  ..
But.  The. People. That. Ask. Call..txt.  etc me 
 ...I don't know. How to getth4u. 
These  are your misconceptions.   This is. Reality  .I don't. Give a. Crap.. beleive me or not.
...just. stop.. asking me.  
Thats   all i ask.   Leave me. Alone.   Stop.trying to.cause trouble. Harass steal. Etc.  Because. You assume. & are  vindicitve & or angry. . 

But I have hesitated  on. Saying. The. I guess  full story..     but. I've been. Thinking. .   Maybe it doesn't matter. If. A few hindered  people know
And. Then we can. Move on
(IT CAME UP. BECAUSE THE PEOPLE  HERE. ARE. FINALLY. SEEING.   . ME. & SAYING/ASKING. 
I DONT. GET. HOW. SOMEONE. LIKE YOU 
GOT TO. WHERE YOU ARE TODAY ..
HOW. YOU WENT FROM.  . TO....
AND. 
(SO THEY MENTIONED A FUND ME PAGE.  R
OR SOMETHING
I DONT BELIEVE IN THEM)
BUT POINT BEING.   THEY NEED TO FINISH. & SELL.    THEY WENT TO BEFORE 
BUT HEY. Manager of. Housing here. 
THE last APPRAISER SAID  I've added  at least  25 000. To the. Asking price due to my work 
And 10g. From the landscaping alone

A funny. . Cause. Now I have to wear headsets.    

( a side affect has been  neighbors. Chatting.   Ughhh lol..
They did Say thank. God.  .
Cause  I asked if it was OK...
 I didnt want to make anyone  mad.
   ..however  ...it  did. supeise me. ...
They said. Omg. No.  We agree. 150 percent. With what  Your doing . Phew)

Sooooo that has bought 
Me time
Well.
.because. they thought well we like her food..
But there guys.  .
So didn't see the initial benefits  of me cleaning. Repairing and landscaping. ..


WELL I KEEP. HEARING HOW. HAVE TO  RE MORTGAGE. OR. MOVE. OR ETC 
CAUSE BILLS. GETTING BEHIND.  BECAUSE BASICALLY. LIVING HERE  AS I FIX.  AND COOK ..

I JUST THROW MEALS INTO CONTAINERS  FOR THERE MEALS . 
I HAVE DONE FOR OTHERS  BEFORE ..
SO WHAT I MEANT BY BECAME VEGAN.  
I DIDNT GET A CHOICE  IT ALL THEY  BOUGHT. 
SO HAD TO LEARN..
BUT
THAT IS ALL THEY CARED ABOUT.. THEY DIDNT SEE THE VALUE.
IN CLEANING. . 

I THINK THEY JUST COULDNT SEE.  
Cause wow. ...I'm telling you. I worked as a maid. Before  and.   Never seen. Taken. Me sooo long to get. Dust hair mold.  fungus. Insects.

Right now. I'm ready
Except. Torn up with scratched. Bites. Calloused. And poison ivy 

Soooo as soon as that. ..
Anyway So. When I take a break.  I watch u tube on the TV  
Whoooo whoooa
I have a music. And Playlists
Bluetooth headset 
Moved. The 8 
8 photos  vid accts  unto
3 main ones

The hard part I didn't realize have to download.  Then. Upload to blog for you.    
And just now touching  phones again

Cause again. .hand think tore tendons in hand and thumb 

IMPORTANT...
But I mean.IM Not complaining 

That is honestly a bit me.
 A bit  my luck and  here 
Happens to have always being in this area had always been. My downfall......you'll see 
I have the stuff together

Well I have.b
Neighbor's. Wanting this done. Then owners wanting rhat done.  And. Another needs meals. Prepared.. I am 
Trying to workout. Walk every day
Learn.New things like VEGAN and roku. U tube 

Finally  get my crap together   on .fix condense. My accts and Webcam.   
social sites blogs. Pics and
Re did resumes. Added to Job sites
I renewed insurance  have a new dr in the area    
For me that's hard to find
There for crap now 
And I prefer. Someone. Knows me. And if I ask for. ...well like the owner had pneumonia 
Last year' paid. At least. 3600 in costs to fix
Last year  I took them  to Pitt. And in 3 hrs and 200 
Bucks he was ok. Vs.  His 3 months and close to 5grand.
This year he got it again
And  first he did go to urgent care..1200. Again
But 
Then I showed him
And let's just say
This year went from that
To
To. Yeahhh 2 weeks and cost 80 bucks 

Did same for me. Cause you
Guys helpd..
I couldn't  do it.  .
Straight  away 
WHY WHY 
WHY YOU ASK

CAUSE LIKE WITH  EVERYTHING. .
EVERYTHING. 
IT TAKES PEOPLE  A LONG TIME 
ESPECIALLY  WITH ME
******VERY
IMPORTANT ****
AND HERE  IM NOT SURE ITS EVEN POSSIBLE 
IS WHAT I AM SAYING 

THATS. THE DIFFERENCE...I KNOW BEEN TO. 48 CITIES..
NOT  DOING THE SAME THINGS.   BTW ..
BUT. IN A FEW MONTHS
THEY SEE

WHAT IM SAYING  IS TRUE
I DONT BS..
I DO WHAT I SAY 
WHEN
here. I just don't think. Unsure it's possible..


Anyway sooo it has taken the. People  around  me 
6.  & ID say. Now. 9 months. ..for them. To see.  .then. think ...know. .. ask.  Etx. ..
....I just say me...
But I mean
Normal
Honest. Etx
Blunt..like in fl...I said. 
I see why younger guys. Would. Say hi...
A lot of. This generation.  More Females. & a lot of males 
Well. 
(Oh let me be correct) mental. Illnesses. & addiction.  (.huge  issues)

I do agree with. Some and I saw i t antd. Did things  differently. But you. See it didnt save me

Cause. To many others.   Including my family.   Did things a different way 
I hope you know what I mean.   Cause that's.  Dynamight  as a topic.   
( we can't have a conversation..debate.  either ..
Heck...we can't even have. Comics. Stand up.  Like we use to....that's a shame.  But It's why a few of my. Things. Got. Suspended.    I was. Joking. ..
Sarcasm.  Self. Depreciating humor ..
& it wasn't. Viewed  as.  .didbt. read as such)
But I'm never serious.  Seriois..  
Even the above. If. You   disagree.   Great.   Not a big deal..
Ohh
BUT WOW

ENTERTAINMENT.   SAYING HI ...LEVITY 
IS EVERYTHING NOW MARKETING. MAKINGA BUCK....
YES I UNDERSTAND 
BUT.  EVERY. EVERY. PIC OR BIT OF INFO..
IS WHAT IM SAYING

SO. AS WITH
HEY I NEVER  EVEN OPENED  an app...said. hey. Google..before the last 2 3 years 
Never  did. Streaming. .
Had no idea  all those

 ....Laugh.   
EXAMPLEs..
   I don't. Know what you call them  . But you know  what I mean...
I THOUGHT  THOSE WERE REAL ,news feeds. 
..took. me a month. To realize  the. Djinn. Angel. Videos where a commercial for. Religion 
The movies. With. Videos. Cameras.  Weren't  All. Documanariea.  Some juat .movies
......ex....horror in high desert.  Shadowman. 
Go. Ahead.   
Laugh. It up...
Its ok...i agree
...
Wow.  What an idiot.

I think. Have a better. Handle on it now.  with utube vids. At least I can.  Whizz thru  faster

...they say. I'm. TV. Add.
 Well..
 It's. To slow for me.  Speed it up. Or. Entertain me. Its. why I talk. Fast or while naked.  
..I think. I'll have to in a Bikini now tho..
I still don't. Get the. Rules  yet.  Which is why paused a second..tired of. Doing something wrong and. Then  suspended  or re doing or. Stolen  and. Re making  new  accts 

Again. Didn't happen  before I came here 
Specifically  had. Same  sites   accts.  Numbers.  Hadn't deviated  in.  The 5 years in nc and the 5 yrs in fl. Or. The 3 years   traveled.before. I got here.   
That's. Why. I don't. View the. Issue as me.   
Anyway  ok. 
Guess what    I think I found. Where. The Bible. Christianity  etc. Came from.. 
I had always wondered.  And. That is as. Far as I'm. Taking  that. Subject.  
 But. This. Documentary. Laid it out like.  Case. Western  reserve. Researxh papers. DId. And. That  Is what i look for not just babble 






Hey everyone. You know. How. I've been watching. What herbal supplements. & Foods 
 I can add to my diet lately. 
Well my. Cue's are all in.  
Herbal and alternative medicines. So I knew most of that.. 

Like I tell those that ask 
The only. Thing. We know. More then the  "average "
Person. Is. 
2 things u can do immediately.   Without dieting excersize
( i really do have a personal. Training license. And as you know I'm an rn.)
And workout..ocd clean freak. Fanatic)..

So. When I take a break. For a minute. From trying to. Finish. This. Place. That hasn't been  touched in 20. plus years..

There are a bunch of kettle bells. Left here  .so been watching how to do .  ..
 



 Dr ...(fda trained).
 Go thru. How many. What foods. Banned in like  160 countries.  From  USA. Do to how bad for you 
Like our.  
Citrus pop.  What i call. White pop. ..sprite. mounting du.& even 
Gatorade 
High fructose. .corn syrup

Speaking of....our corn..& h so. Cereals.   Due to dyes also..  

Our Milk .& dairy a lot of our. cereal .(dyes) our bread..(subway franchise banned jn other places)

Our packaged 
.processed & lunch meats.  ( I think many knew. Just like artifical  sugars. Stevia)

Our packaged.. ground meat. .
our Pork.fish &chicken. (what the animals  fed with & washed with clorine & addded dyes to look fresh)

Misc. List..
Stevia...& artificial sweatners
Papaya.. soy. Sugar cane skittles .twizzlers  .etc..

These things  are on a list. That other countries. Include.      With. Things. So. Severly detrimental  to our health.  
 Well.   This Same list   also has  .Plutonium on it 
(.not kidding )

Comments

Michael said…
Hope you have a wonderful birthday Toni! Always glad to see you posting, hope things are going well for you!
D W said…
How do we contact you again?
Kylie Benz said…
Yes. Mom how do I contact you lol